this guy

I have this some unknown guy playing in my mind ...
it's like I know him .. but i dont...
it is like I smell a familiar scent , but dont know where is it from ...
i can feel that he is beside me ...
it's like he really exist .
but i know he do exist in my mind..
what am i suppose to do ,..
i've been thinking whole day ..
who is he ?
why is he in my mind ..
am i being possess ?
i really am confuse ..
I want to know him .. i wnt to know who is he.. and why is he playing in my mind ..
this is so weird and im am so curious to know ...
will i get to meet him one day ? to know the truth of why is he so familiar .... ??

WILL I ?!?

December

I am home yesterday .. found out nothing changes much when I left for 2 weeks.

the only things change is my family ..

staying at KL is fun ... when im back home, it's boring and lonely

all is house chores ,.. no movie to see ...

lazy to go out ...

no one to hang around ..

this is all so boring ...

though, this thursday, Im going to get my result !!!!!!!!!!!

how nervous i am ...

keep thinking how;s my result will turn out to be ... whether it will be flying colours or no colours at all ...

im worried that if i fail !

im worried that if i pass !

every feelings i've known jumble up in me ...

like im not feeling very well ...

even sometimes i dont feel like taking the result ...

moreover, this thursday isn't going with my mum... but my cousins or uncle !

OH MY GOD!! so embarassing if I fail !

if can, I really want to forget it ! forget every things ! got my head knock and then AMNESIA .. like i always do !! ><

B2ST !!! {10.11.11}

B2ST  !!! 

LOVE THEM VERY MUCH !!!

BEAST (비스트, stylized as B2ST) is a boy band from South Korea that consists of six members, under Cube Entertainment. The group was originally known as B2ST, an acronym for Boys to Search for Top. However, their name was changed to BEAST (Boys of the East Standing Tall) a few days before debut. They released their first mini-album Beast Is The B2ST on October 14, 2009.

AJ !

NAME: LEE GI KWANG

P.O.B: SEOUL

D.O.B:30.03.1990

bLOOD TYPE: A

HOBBY: DANCE AND WATCH DVD

POST: LEAD VOCALIST, MAIN DANCER

NAME: YOON DOO JOON
D.O.B:04.07.1989
HEIGHT:180cm
WEIGHT:67KG
FAV MUSIC:HIP HP, R&B
POST: VOCALIST,LEADER,RAPPER

NAME:YONG JUN HYUNG

B.O.D:19.12.1989

HOBBY:DANCE

HEIGHT:178cm

WEIGHT:64kg

POST:MAIN RAPPER,VOCALIST

NAME:JANG HYUN SEUNG

D.O.B:03.09.1989

HEIGHT:175cm

WEIGHT:63kg

NAME:YANG YO SEOB

D.O.B:05.01.1990

POST:MAIN VOCALIST

NAME:SON DONG WOON

D.O.B:06.06.1991

POST:RAPPER,VOCALIST

<3 THE END <3

5 November 2011

Hey bloggers !

I apologize for not updating my blog ...

Truly, I feel sad for not update it ! 

that day I wanted to post some thing, but, my mind is just blank!

I don't know what to write nor what to say.. But, I'll try my best to write some thing .

Recently, many things happen . 

First is that I really PISSED with the Minister of Education !

Damn ! He is such a clever human! I had never in my life seen such CLEVER human !

Maybe he is too clever until he really want to change everything back into MALAY !

Leave out the the last badge (they doesn't need to change) !

why the heaven is he so so so CLEVER ? 

Why not stupid like us ?

haix ....  What can I say ? He is such a genius ! 

2012

I think that 2012 is real ! Today news said that Bangkok water flood still haven't end .. Not only that, Japan now also water flood ! 

Then a place at Turkey, an Earthquake Happen there ! It shake til 7.2 ! The biggest earthquake ever ! 50 injured many dead! ... A little girl trap in side a house for 15 days, But she still alive. Thank GOD ! 

This is the news ...

What is LoVe ?

Love !

why when we love some one, it is the most wonderful things in our life ?

but when we break the relationship, 

it hurts so much !

it makes us suffer !

why when we love somebody but when we let them go,

it make us suffer a million time ! ?

why ?

is this why the elders doesn't want us to couple because of that reason ?

I've seen two friend of mine hurt because of love..

LoVe is indeed a very powerful words ...

I've seen them cry and suffer ..

in the time being, 

I really doesn't know what to do ?

how can I help to ease their pain ?

what should I do to stop them suffer ?

 I want to help !

but I doesn't how to help them ?!

I don't understand their pain for I have never experience 

I never in a relationship with anyone !

honestly. I long wanted to know what's it's like for some one to care us,

to love us,

to be there by our side when we needed them,

to be there for you when you are sad ..

I really wanted to know this .. 

but I denied to the feeling of "want"

some times I feel that it is best when you are single,

but some time I feel that being single is lonely..

There will be no one special to care you ...

The love of own family is different from the love of some one special,

some one that will be by your side for the whole life..

But some time having a relationship cause many troubles/..

it will makes you heart break,

suffer of love,,..

I doesn't how a person can step two boat in a leg ?!

Doesn't that seems to be unfair for both of the person ?

I really don't how they can do it ?

is cheating some one will be happy ?

can you imagine that you cheated some one your entire life !

Doesn't that suffering ?

doesn't that makes you feel guilty ?

maybe that's how life works ...

"to tell the truth, I really don't know what I'm writing..

so please forgive me if I had wrote some thing rude or might hurt

your heart"

I MUST FORGET YOU !

I thought I can forget you ...
I really already forget bout you ,...
but why do you suddenly exist back ?
Why cant you leave me alone ?
what had i did to you ?
Why do you come back in me ?
i had already tossed the feeling far deep inside my heart !
Why why Why ?
Why that day ?
Why you come back ?
I really don't want to see you any more in my life !
You're a pain in ass !
DAMN !

I will eat you up like this cookie ! If I ever saw you again ! 

To save your life, better don't let me saw you !

I Don't want to be remind how obsess I am towards you !

"MUST FORGET YOU !"

Tense ! X(

Today Interact meeting ....
Kinda bored ~
haha ...

worst thing is , "WHERE CAN I GET A SKIRT AND LONG-SLEEVE SHIRT?"
OMG !
Where am I suppose to get it ?
I'm so tension now !
Where to find !?
Where to find ?!

Even though I yell out, No one would have heard it ...
Haix~...
What ever in my life I did till' I got this situation ?

Who cares right ?
so... I won't care even a bit ! XP

Exam~ :(

Today exam is so rushing ...

especially art !

not even have the slightest time to finish it ! 

But Morale go smoothly ~ as I expected but my essay is not really good ...

Never mind ... Coming exams I will do my best as I can !

The important subject end yesterday ...

 i don't really feel happy with my answer ... 

I feel like wanting to redo again ~

Or reverse the time or go back with a time machine ... 

If This world really have a time machine, everyone sure could pass their exam..

So..., it's better that don't have time machine ...

but if only I who have it , ain't that good ?

though I'm being selfish ... That's all ... Right ?

Hmmm ... What ever ... I can't change the pass ~ 

just waiting for the future to reach :D

MorOn !

When you love me , you would say a zillion time "I Love YOU" "I WANT TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER" "I WANT YOU TO BE MINE" "I MISS YOU" ....

But when he leaves you , " GO AWAY CHICK ! YOU ARE NO LONGER MINE" "I DON'T KNOW YOU , AND GO AWAY!" "HEY BITCH ! GET LOST!" ....

This is what you get in the end ! 

why not you "GET LOST" now !? you moron !

Don't think you are a boy which is older than me, can bully me whenever you like ! I'm not a toy !

I do have heart like you have ! Unless you don't have heart, that I don't mind at all with your childish character !

This kind of guy is better of with his head !!!! 

It's useless to be with him any more than a second .....

Life is miserable ! .... Life sucks !

WTF !

STOP DISTURBING ME ! YOU BOTAK TUA !

I don't even know you ! 

Why the HELL you keep DISTURBING ME ?

What I did hUH ?

Kill your FAmiLY ?

Yeah ! I am Chinese.. So what ?

Does it matter to you ?

Am I going to suck your old dirty blood ?

I don't know how you could have been my friend ! 

This is weird as ever ! Life sucks !

I am sO SORRRY that I dare not say it out

"Sorry"
A words which is really easy to say out.
But why I can't say it ?
Is it some thing I am forbidden to say ?
Why every time I wanted to say sorry to you, I feel like some thing i pulling me not to say it ..
can I ever say it to you ?
When it comes to some thing that is big matter , i couldn't do it. if it's not, I could say it .
Why am I like this ?
I feel like I am nothing but a stone.
hmm,... Am I ?

what I did is not what I want it to end like this.
I am now really sad, frustrate, angry and feel like I'm better of from here.
I rather not to exist ...

Actually ...
can you please forget what had happen and change to your own self ?
I miss the way you are before...
I hate the attitude you held now..
i feel that there is no space for me to be here.. no reason for me to stay.
You change to some thing worst ..
you keep ignoring me..
After the incident, you've been avoiding or ignoring me ..
you doesn't talk like you use to talk..
Every thing change in a blink of an eye ..
this is weird..

I hate the way it is now ...
can I change every thing ?
can everything be back to normal ?
Truely SORRY ...

komik & story book

Arena !!! Where are you ????
I cant find eu , eu noe ..???!!! T^T

KrekO !!!! Still i like it ...!!
Gt 3 collection of it in this month!! :))

This storybook is not bad !! only who understand only know how to read !! XP

Finish Exam & Holidays !!!!

At last Exam finish le ~
this time exam I'm quite satisfied with my results !
ALL PASS :)
hope the coming trial and PMR my result would be better than I thought it would !!!
hahaha :))
Me super happy ^^

Holidays Starting 4 days already ...
full of homework !! ><
can die now !! X(
jealous Crystal got camp !!
sure fun camping (actually never go camping before.. that's y jealous ..><)
hahaha:DD
I maybe going crazy !!!

now I gotta finish geography and history folio !!
so much work to do X((
haix.. :(
but nevermind lu ...
must work hard to finish it !!!
ahahahaha :)

this saturday going KL !!!
happy HAPPy !!!
can go shopping and find mangas !!!!
muahahaha:DD
(I think Im really going crazy)
Monday only come back !!! >< :))
CANT WAIT TILL THE DAY REACH
>O<!!!

Todays day ~ pass~ HOT !!! >< !!!

Today exam !
English some more~
sien ar ~
some more so hot !
like burning at hell...
i wonder, r we nearing hell ?
haix...
so boring~

wednesday got tuition !!!
very stress !!!
some more 2 tuition.. got to rush here rush there :(
I wonder why i took 2 tuition in 1 time ...
at least 1 afternoon, 1 night is already enough..
but, what to do ?
choose dy cnt change back ~
haix...

i really mizz my holidays at KL...


ytrdy is Mother's Day...
morning go Kampar... then evening go eat dinner celebrate Mother's day~
haha:)
happy :D
later on go McD eat cake ~
share v Hui Yee~
this time de quite expensive..
maybe is becuz freshly made ?
who knows ?
oli the ow=ner knows...

tomoro Sejarah and Science !!!!
muz study hard hard !!! ><
this time muz pass !
I wish to get better result than March ~

today de english paper 1 careless argh ~ !!!!
hate it !
den paper 2 jau ..... haix...
dunno can pass o nt...
hope lik thge pra exam get A la ~
if get, I wil b very happy !!! :D
even my Mother asao will b happy ^^
muz Fight v my cousin sister !!!
brak her records !!!

"FIGHT TIL' THE END OF THE WORLD !!!"

yahahahaha XD

Today go Berjaya Times Square !
So Fun !

We go Play Archery...

<<<<< My cousin sister (Angella)

They put the thing so tight til my hand also pain ~
They said when shoot time, hand muz straight macam kayu ! ~
HAhahaha~

play til my hand not so got energy to hold things o move :(
haix~
so :(

After that we play Bowling !!!
Wa ~
Fun lu ~

<<<Me Playing Bowling ~                                                                                                                          

the Ball damn heavy !

maybe as heavy as a person kg ~

wa hahaha~

juz kidding ~

BALL BALL~

<almost want to chase the ball ... like siao cha bo ! >

den they bought doughnuts {big & small }
*DELICIOUS !*
but before that we go eat Chicken Rice !
Nt bad na ... ~
juz .... erm... dunno na ~
quite cheap aso~
I think today my mother spent around $150 o $200 ~
haix ,..
Muz say Good Bye to MY PRECIOUS $$$ money :((

haix ~
Though, money bye, Fun Come ComE !!!!
wa hahaha ~
play till siao liao ~
can go commit suicide ~
blek !

oh ya, b4 forget,
today got go visit KDU Colledge...
aso a little bt interesting...
but I guess Taylor more nice ??
hmmm... Who knows ?

haha :D
Damn Enjoy & HappY !
TraIN TraIN !!!
Wait for M3 !
SaYa BeluM naIk laGI !!!!
JanGan pergi !!!! ><"

gt gud News n bad News~ ScaRed Ar ~ !!! >

yesterday go ipoh buy new watch :)

Happy sei me ><

very expensive aso ...X(

den some more go tokutokuya bought an anklet~~

kinda nice ~ :)

den some more buy glove~ 

half de ! happy happy :D

today at school feel so sleepy

especially NILAM time ~

boring dao~ X(

almost sleep wen reading the Mr. Midnight~

hahaha~:D

den tcher suddenly gib announcement !

more worst !

feel sleepy more ><

head almost fsll d X(

den finish d~ feel relieve...

get up time, leg cramp !

OucH !!! ><

cnt stand !!!

later gt science...

some more need to go !

haix.. Tired Xl

.....

nt long after receive a gud news frm crystal !

she ady *** v h** jor ~

haha.. tat time really cnt belive it :X

Duno wad to say, bt stil hapi for her ~

:))

wish both of them last long :))

after recess, I heard frens said that later gt injection !

So sked ! ><!

very anxious~

i some more heard that Suki inject liao her face straight bcum pale~

tat time i really very sked...

as if i've done some thin wrong & nd to be punish !

OMG ! :X

but c c, we tak kena !

DaMN !

although sked, 

I aso wan go inject 1st !

at least wednesday go school no need sked again..

unfortunately, our class din hav...

need wait til wednesday ~

Some more wan til wednesday... 

Thursday some more stay back n mayb gt tennis,

sure pain ! X(

Sked ArGh!!!! ~

after receive tat news, english cum,,,..

tat sir keep sayin the ORAL TEST makes me more nervous...

& I aso nt yet prepare >< !!!!

SO unlucky ~ X(

haix

wad to do ?

life is lik that...

nothing is ever perfect in this world ~

T T

 Today 1830 already go McDonald.
Crystal and Vivian are going too...
we've sitted there online for 1 hour plus,
Then we go to Sushi King eat sushi !
I've used up the voucher .
Crystal ate a plate of sushi and a Fish .
She drank Orange Yakult . which is NeW in Market !
Vivian didn't eat much . just drink a cup of honey lemon tea .

(Vivian, if you saw this, don't angry ya )
: she's waiting for her Grand ma to come fetch her back ~

I couldn't take some photo of Crystal . . .
What A waste !

Though, I wish Crystal Be safe on her journey to Ipoh ~
Farewell ~

Possible or Not ?

Is it possible for me to like you or is it not ?
I'm so confuse !
Never in my life felt like this before...

he said we're friends...
So can I make it more than that ?
I know i don't have the guts to confess...
And I doesn't know that you have girlfriend or not ?
I wanted to ask you, But I do not dare to...
I scare that you'll find out some thing or simply think...

Here I ask, "Can I fall for you ?"
Will you reject me ?
Or will you accept me ?

What I want is that for you to accept who I am but not What I ain't .
Every time I saw your message, I feel happy !
I don't know why . . .
but I guess I really fall for you ~

Lucky And Unlucky Day !

Today so dangerous !
Hand phone almost give people snatch~
Luckily I hold on my phone tightly...
Stupid Snatcher ! Make my hand hurt !
Damn You !

The most funny thing is that Vivian and Yu Jia thought that the snatcher is my "Friend" !
But they felt weird that why I suddenly scold that fellow "PUKIMA"...

After that accident, we prepare our self with stone so that if the fellow come again, we will throw the stone over at him.....

To tell the truth, I felt stupid !
Why didn't I memorize his bike number !
cAN REPORT REPORT !!

after that stay at Vivian house... Rest~

Earth DaY ! ! !

Today is Earth Day !
Must switch off the light for 60 minutes !
We Must Save The Earth !
Without the Earth, there's no live !
And without lives, there's no us !

So, For Earth Sake ! Please Help Our Planet !
Our Home ! Our Only Hope Of Future !

Sparks Fly

Taylor Swift~ Sparks Fly

The way u move is like a full-on rainstorm

And I’m a house of cards

You’re the kind of reckless that should send me running

But I kinda know that I won’t get far

And u stood there in front of me

Just close enough to touch

Close enough to hope u couldn’t

See what I was thinking of

#Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain

  Kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain

  ‘Cause I see sparks fly, whenever u smile

  Get me those green eyes, baby

  As the light go down

  Give me something that’ll haunt me

  When you’re not around

  ‘Cause I see sparks fly, whenever u smile #

My mind forget to remind me

You’re a bad idea

U touch me once and it’s really something

U find I’m even better than u imagined I would be

I’m on my guard for the rest of the world

But with u, I know it’s not good

And I could wait patiently

But I really wish u would

Repeat #

I’ll run my fingers through your hair

And watch the lights go wild

Just keep on keeping your eyes on me

It’s just wrong enough to make it feel right

And lead me up the staircase, won’t u whisper soft and slow

I’m captivated by u, baby

Taylor Swift~ Enchanted

There I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles

Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifiting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered "have we met?"
Across the room your silhouette starts to make it's way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up
2am, who do you love?
I wonder till I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say,
It was enchanted to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that this was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

BLOG!!! BLOG!!!!

Today redo a new blog again...

Blog blog blog....
eu are my pals tat I could say anything and express my feeling...
eu are so damn helpful!
without eu, i would be rotten to bored~

plse accompanny me til I wish to stop...

thx~ :D

After March Exam~

Exam over already~

So happy and yet unhappy......

Wants to know why?

It's because, still got MID=TERM, TRIAL, and PMR ! !

It's like there is no freedom for me to to enjoy...

But, working is much more harder than studying...

Must enjoy school life first then only start working...

I hope my result will be good.....

Mother said if I get good result, she'll buy a new hand phone for me ! ! ! ! Yay ! ! !